Sunday, March 21, 2010

Curiously, age is just a number


When "The curious case of Benjamin Button" came out, I had no interest whatsover to watch it. Nada. I mean, who wants to see Brad Pitt old, and lets face it what would be the point? Hehe.

Last night, the movie played on HBO and I thought, what the heck. I actually enjoyed it. It was a very interesting movie, although personally I thought the make-up special effects were more garish than realistic.

I wonder what it would feel like to get younger instead of older. Being 30 (yes folks, am not the kind of gal to hide behind a number) and feeling exactly the way I did when I was 17 kinda makes me feel like I'm stuck in perpetual limbo. I always think that one day miraculously I will wake up and feel 30 (it hasn't happened yet, am still waiting). Then again, who's to say how a 30 year old is supposed to act. Heck, I might still feel this way when I reach 50!

I know I should be wiser, more resposible and generally better in control of my life. Suffice to say, I feel none of this. In my defense, at least, I can say, that I have made alot of mistakes and have tried my best to learn from them. To quote one of my favourite lines of all time:

'I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.' The Notebook

Sure, there are many things I wish I had done differently. So tempting to sit and ponder all the 'what ifs' but I know that things happen for a reason. So I am glad that unlike Benjamin Button, I get to grow old with my loved ones..and really who wants to go through the raging hormones of puberty again? Am still traumatized from my first time..hehe.

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